I am doing my Bachelor in Midwifery. And so far (all be it, i've only been there 4 days) I am loving it. Its hard work, but thats why i'm enjoying it. Its pushing me to get my brain working and learning again, its such a great feeling. I never though in a million years I would ever say that!
Its a LOT of hours though, Im there every single day. Which I was not expecting when I first applied. I had an 8 hour day today which killed me I am exhausted and so is Ethan. Its hard work but I know in te end it will be worth it. And I do get to come home and nap with my little man.
And then Friday my amazing friend Jess will watch him for a little until Thomas gets home from work.
Its a huge commitment! One that I have struggled with, seeing my little mans face as I leave him every day is breaking my heart. I miss seeing him giggle and smile all day, I miss him pulling my hair and playing with my fingers. But at the same time, I know he is well looked after and that makes everything ok.
So I have traded in my slippers and pjs, for jeans and a tshirt.
I have traded in my cup of tea and toast for a coffee on the go
I have traded in my hours of breast feeding, to pumping in the car on my way too and from uni
I have traded in my poppy nappies and vomit, for lectures and tutorials
Even if it is just for a few hours a day, I miss everything and am always so eager to get home!
But I am so happy and its making the time I am home with Ethan even more amazing. Im appreciating every second like I never have before and its just wonderful to come home every day to his smiling face and knowing that he has had a great day, and i'm following my dreams.
If nothing else, thats what i'm getting out of this. That I hope one day Ethan can look back on this and see how hard I worked to achieve my dreams and goals and how anything is possible as long as you set your mind to it!
So today for Thankful Thursday I am thankful for so many things, for my wonderful family who have stuck by me and made all of this possible, for watching Ethan and being as amazing and supportive as they have been. I am thankful for the ability to be going to Uni to study Midwifery and the ability to achieve my dream!
I'm also very thankful to the wonderful student who stopped today to give me her parking ticket so I didnt have to buy one, Thank you kind stranger, I will pass on the favour!
Its times like this I realise how truly lucky I am and how blessed I am to live this life.
Of course I'm linking up with Leigh at "Six by the Bay" for Thankful Thursday! What makes you thankful? Head on over and link up, it will change your day, promise!